Things i should be doing with my time
Things i'm doing all the time
Just a brief insight into 2011. Everything went fast,life,and past. I tend to look at life in a really harsh way. In the grand scheme of things,i feel so small,so naive,so insignificant. Sorta looking forward to 2012,trying too hard to be a healthy teen girl and enter the right path. What to do. Provided i have enough emotions,and so easily shaken. Life's a sum of all choices up to this point,every choices i've made all along the way brought me here. I hope i came to the right place. Um let's see...what else i got....
#Friendship
That wasn't too bad tho. I was constantly widening my friends circle,but personally keep the old at the first place. It is hardly possible for me to eliminate these people from my life. The other way round,i can't easily accept those new people into my life. Simply because most of the time i judge people,but not in a negative way tho. Let's say,i judge people based on their personalities and general attitudes,not by their look or appearance or whatsoever. However,we went separate ways after secondary sch. I started to realize who my real friends are since then,cause most of em' still listen when i'm in pain,still came back after long,still text me even though i rarely reply(deepest apologies) life sucks big time without em' :>
#Relationship
Sorta complicated actually. It picks me up,pulls me down,breaks my heart,watch me drown. I'm so messed up,it was all my fault. I'm immature,capricious and annoying at the same time. I put the blame on myself. I can't seem to let go i can't deny,i'm still holding on,for no reason. Don't ask why,i'm waiting for something unknown,God knows. If second chances are granted,i would be the best ever. I never want to force anyone or even myself,quietly i'll leave it to fate. I hope i'm doing this right.
#Studies
I wasn't really doing my best,yet not the worst. I don't do revision everyday(biggest sin):X I slacked off when my emotions tangled up,cause my mood is everything. Recently i was trying to read more books about law in general and some legal cases in m'sia to get a general outlook and improve my english. I hope it works. The worst part is,i don't give a damn about my economics and business txbook holyshit..:< I was hoping that i could enroll in law school in 2013,again i'll leave everything to fate. Something must be done next year,i swear! Finger crossed :>
To encapsulate 2011 with a single word,it would be UNPRODUCTIVE. Let's count down to the end of the world! Peaceful world,nice things and good people! Happy New Year 2012!!<3
